BOOK WAS CLOSED BUT A PAGE WAS OPEN (PART-3)

 

 "THE TIME TO SAY GOODBYE"

Travelling in different space for couple of time now I was getting familiar with all this stuff slowly & steadily but also it was time to get back where I was. & so soon I was unable to hear the voice coming, only at last when a looked towards the window  it was little fade to see but I was able to see a hand right outside the window waving Towards me & I also  saw a child trying to jump up and see what I was doing there but interesting part in this   was maybe this  small child who was waving at me probably was someone whom I personally know closely .

on the other hand he also knows me & but when I tried to recall who he could be ? But I couldn't jump upon a conclusion  may be we both were having a conversation there,I couldn't hear him clearly may be he was wishing me good luck for the new start & that's I could find by the signs made by him .Atlast I was little emotional with all over the things happening since I came here,I turned around myself  towards the door thats from where I entered the room  & before I couldn't spoke a word ahead to that child & started moved ahead to get out of this all.

So quick I got out from the door the darkness around me started fading & I again travelled around the place & time & founded that  I was still there sitting on the cliff of mountain with him & he said me open your eyes,& said"I think you have got answers for all your questions,now it's my time to go back I have further work .but keep in the mind what you experience today ,it will always help you to find a new way when you need. I was already feeling disturbed & heavy inside,I wanted to tell & discuss to many things, who was that child & everything ,but couldn't spoke & just suddenly the tears were dropping down my face travelling down me & finally reaching the ground.

 

When he saw my tears dropping down my face , He came closer to me extended his hand on my shoulder he said ,"I know you have been through excessive things & there are alot things inside your heart that's disturbs you &  keep you awake at nights still today ,but it's okay that you are not able open up now & see there is no way that we can always be stand strong , sometimes we need to feel free thats why it's important to let out the pain that's been hurting us deeply through either ways how we feel comfortable, I know it would have been a painful journey to go deep inside of you & face the things that scares you the most, but in the end it's all the beginning of  lighting a new candle of hope & believe to find the direction towards the new routes & it's the best way for you I bet it would be amazing journey for you  And soon I'll come to meet you may be for a new journey but for now you have reached where I had to take you".

 

Trying to control the feelings finally I broked my silence "Yes it was indeed a great experience.

Thank you for coming & sorry for at times being rude at you & Being very close to the reality with you I really enjoyed each bit.I know what I have to do further, but I'm hoping to meet you very soon, but not how we met this time but may be next time in my home or anywhere else"& we both were smiling & sure, he replied"we'll go for a another journey like this in future.He turned back and smiled & said 'I'm always close to you when you need me I'm always there behind you following your steps. Feeling a little sad & with a heavy heart I said good bye to him & he wished me a Goodluck & I was watching him go slowly in the forest from the cliff & as a memory of this trip he gave me his cowboy hat & told me to keep it safe & look at the hat when I feel alone & remember this whole journey.

In fact again that same white light came & with its brightness he disappeared in the red wood trees  & now everything became normal & I was all alone with that hat on the cliff of mountain but I felt more stronger & secure than before, I was watching one of best sunset of my life , it was a precious moments & I was seeing the shadow of me changing him for tomorrow & with this sunset my fears, problems, & old me , pain were slowly drowning down and going away from me for forever & from tomorrow a new journey a new person will rise up with the sun.This was The  journey that opened a page of life book which I never thought to open.

whenever I look back at all this,I believe sometimes in the story's of life emptiness matters more than a happy or sad ending,Also Still For me 'Life is still like a puzzle & every piece never fits at a perfect place but also taking a moment to reassess the puzzle & once again try to puts the parts perfect that's what best I can do but I know one day the puzzle will be solved & the real life  picture will come in front of me & I will see the real design & meaning of my life.

From where a journey stopped & where I moved  , sometimes stucked but once before I saw the negativity holded my hand so tightly & It tooked me towards the door of darkness & from there it  took a long time to snatch myself back in the light of positivity which desperately I wanted around myself wherever I go.It's probably like when we are force to live in a dark room for a few days & restricted to strictly be away from sunlight, that's when the urge to see sunlight increases &so then we find a way to broke the hard window glass & let the sunlight again touch our hands that's all happened in the past with me.

But indeed god had a different plan, soon everything changed now here,I am sitting in front of you & sharing my story that's what life is all about, we didn't know what mystery tomorrow holds, but to find a star of hope in the sky of negativity to provide you a way to keep the believe  that you'll get over . also its even not so easy to find it but to keep searching thats what I feel as crucial.In the whole chaos of my story & in every upside down of life I found the person who was either afraid to come in reality or was just somewhere lost himself in between past & future?  & who also intimating to be the person what others wanted to be rather than he never asked himself what he wanted?.

so going back thinking about that person whom I met in montecristo, I met him couple of times more but Nobody knows may be today he could be here sitting on the couch with us having a cup of coffee in hand , watching us, smiling & listening my story I know  it's all miracle to believe but  its true in the  reality It's all that I founded a new hand that is everywhere with me may be not physically but always around  me like my shadow that holded my hand  so tightly &  tooks  me out from darkness & making  me strong enough that I never see myself again experiencing things how I felt before.

"Some journeys ,some decisions,some roads were meant to be took alone but its so fascinating that it was all beginning of finding what's lost behind, To go & explore wishes that are still hiding there, creating a way to the visions that never had existence before, also whether it all began with the sunset of me & with the new sunrise of me?" How it happened is still a question & answers indeed correlated to eachother  & has a mystery  in it".but there I was freed from the cage & was free to fly away but  for a moment I was still nervous to open the wings of purpose & believe but I'm happy that I made it & I finally opened the wings & flied so high that I never landed on the old  suffering ground of past & went away in future so did explored my whole new world so quickly & brightly.

In the end  Its more important to get closer &  to who we are & go deep enough in the sea of us or life to know the beauty inside it & experience the storms of problems in life to find that sailor inside us who want to take his new boat out in the sea of life & who is ready to take risk to explore & build a whole new world for him as he wishes &it's equally crucial let once ask few questions & give him a chance to reply or write all of things he feels,wish, fears, loves , the secrets , everything  let all of it fall free on a blank page & listen or see what it all says .its always a amazing journey to explore & travel around spaces that we never thought before to happen & find him. 

For that its important to have a conversation with that sailor & remember he is never too faraway from us but it's necessary for us to take the risk of losing who we are & travel deep in the sea & reach the place where he is waiting for us.But also coming towards what I feel is that"For me there is still some one, who is still hiding inside of me that I need to get closer to him & have a conversation to find him somewhere in reality, so here I need to take the new boat out  into the sea of life or need to again  travel some new spaces of dark & light may be I could find him hiding in that room of disguise or may be he'll be that sailor who would be sitting & waiting for me under the tree of wishes & hope.........."